I must say I freaked out a bit!
I was miserable the first 3 days of this fast and kept asking my husband to check something online for me. He kept responding with “I’m not your dealer!” ouch! loved the media fast. I stayed away from doing anything that resembled a “have to” like cleaning the garage got so much accomplished. I will go without phone, tv, cable, and a dishwasher and dryer but don’t take away my online access can’t wait to do one again!
Seriously, after I stopped pacing in circles, and relaxed, I found all sorts of wonderful things to do. I painted, and I sewed 3 new things for my mini-me. (”I’ll post pics later) Mike calls her “Mommies little dress up doll”. I listened to a series by Eugene Peterson from Regent called Jesus and Prayer. It was great. I highly recommend downloading some of their teaching series.
I also did something surprisingly healing for me. You may be shocked and horrified to know, I don’t have completed baby books or albums for our dear children. So I wanted to create a framed group of pictures of all of them from birth to now, one for every year to see their progress. I was SO THANKFUL that my dear, amazing husband documented all of the early years with photos and videos and has them neatly archived on our computer. I have just recently been able to go back through them all and enjoy them instead of being overwhelmed. It was so fun to see their growth and our families growth all in a very compressed 2 hour period. I got to relive the time without the pain, sleeplessness, vomiting etc. and remember the beauty and joy of it without needing to have it back again. Wow it is amazing how much older we look in the past 5 years. I had been freaking out dealing with the fact that our middle child turns 5 in a few months and I am sadly solidly out of the baby phase. After reviewing the pictures and family videos, I realized I was as present as I could be and enjoyed every minute to the best of my ability and hope to keep that in view as we move forward. Life is alwasy changing, I can’t hold on to any season, I just need to be present in every season so that I will live with no regrets.
More later!
